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Finally have the time to update this space. Currently working a full time job in a bank and now I know how ignorant I was. I always thought the aunty sitting at the counter serving us was having a pretty slack job, all they have to do was just to key some numbers into the system but NO! Till now then I realise, there's so much work and effort behind it. Working on a 11-9, sunday banking basis is draining me out. There's even lesser time for family, boyfriend and friends. Luckily I have a understanding boyfriend who hates my job but will wait patiently outside for me to knock off just to have dinner together :)

I know that since sissy is currently overseas, I have all the responsibilities to take care of the family, putting in more time and effort to accompany my parents. I dare not say that I've put in my best but I tried. I always make the effort to stay home on either Sat or Sun to fetch my Mom from work and eat dinner together, making it a compulsory family routine but it's not enough. Recently, Mom is constantly comparing herself with Jb and I really don't know why. I'm angry because I know that's not the truth. She likes to compare, she NEVER fail to compare but I just hope that one day, I'm able to prove to her that my r/s isn't what she thinks and she can accept Jb wholeheartedly. Nevertheless, I love my family and I know they love me too.

"I failed in some subjects in exam, but my friend passed in all. Now he is an engineer in Microsoft and I am the owner of Microsoft" - Gates.

So, I have successfully graduated from Temasek Polytechnic as a Leisure resort management student and I'm currently on holiday and waiting to embrace a whole new life which I don't really look forward to. I got a bank job which offers a not bad pay but I don't see myself in there. I need to path a nicer road for myself because I don't want to be just another individual who slog their life off for money, it should be the other way round isn't it? Money should work for me instead, but it's still far-fetched :(

Put that future thing aside, I attended the LRM prom at Marriot hotel and well, it's alright but the after prom party was awesome. Too bad butter closes at 3am which was wayyyyyyy to early!! We literally pawned the dancefloor hahahaha. I am proud to be a lrm-er and till now, I never regret choosing that course because I think we've the closest bond within the whole cohort. I will miss my cohort people!! esp my clique but I know that even this phase of my life ends, I will have my twinny evil cynthia with me forever hahaha. I'll prolly feel weird if I don't see her for 2weeks? Maybe I will breakdown and cry LOL bad joke.........

Anyway, another 2 more days before I leave for Melbourne for a short getaway and I can't wait for it! Can really tell my babykinz misses me a lot cause he always look so sad and ask "Can you not go?" hahaha. I always believe that absence makes the heart grow fonder. Kind of regretted choosing the flight date on 27th 'cus it's our 5th month .... if not we could have a nice dinner and not rushing to the airport for 8pm flight. Oh well, but it fits sissy timing so, guess it is better this way!

Glad to say, I think that I'd put in quite a big effort this semester and all my grades and exam papers are looking good (except Club management which I took today, really a nasty one) Really pray hard that I do not have to take supplementary paper so I can go over to Melbourne by the end of March.

So, it has been weeks since my Sissy left for Melbourne to study and my room became super conducive for me to study for my exams. She seems to be coping well, just some financial issues. Hmm, I wonder if I can help in any aspect but guess she's learning to be independent enough to think about her future. Oh my god, I speak like an older sister haha but yea, I'm really glad that she made it and her dream came true. I shall be the supporting facilities, camping in SG.

March is gonna be a busy week for me, with the exams occupying the first week, IT fair for the second week, Bintan trip (not confirm yet) and Yuka's farewell on the third week and lastly, going over to Mel for the last week. I'm really upset that my boyfriend couldn't make it cus of his school period, it will be wonderful if we can make it there together, oh well there's always another opportunity.

I like my schedule packed 'cus it makes me feel that I am needed and I am actually doing something? But now that I have a boyfriend, I have a responsibility to be there for him you see. So I guess I have to try my best to keep him company as promised and hopefully crossing out the list like fishing every Sunday, go Pular Ubin and explore the whole place again and have a nice dinner. But for now, studies is the priority! Hence, I shall do notes for destination management now so that I could go over to his crib to have lunch with him and his family.

Anyway, I went to see a dermatology today with my twinny Cynthia and I spend a total of $289 omg. But subsequently I THINK that I only need to buy the medicine which cost me $180!! After weighing the cost and benefits, nbcb I already went to a $1000 facial which did nothing positive to my face! And this medicine will ETERNALLY stop my acne/pimple so yea, both of us reckon that it's the best deal. I need to work to support my face and exercise to support my weight, omg I freaking put on 4kg after I got together with Junbin. Yea, it's the love that makes me fat but I don't need it to be so visible! :( So yea, will do exercise at least a week and watch my diet. Easier to be said than done, yea yea I know but ...... don't trash my hope can? Haha.

Just a little random thought. I know humans are contradicting or I can say I am rather contradicting. I think that I am already sacrificing part of my social life for my boyfriend and why can't he just see from my point of view. But when I stand in his shoes, I realised that he always make himself free and ever ready for me and will only make plans with his friends after we decided either we're not meeting or I have something on. Why can't I do that for him, am I doing double standard issue over here? Just wondering.

I've been into making cards recently (because I have to do one every month) haha and I really hope that when I have the time, I can make for my friends. Cute right! Hahaha. I am actually looking forward to every month so I can do a card for him. I mailed it to him 'cus I didn't get to see him for the whole exam week, not too bad to be my boyfriend isn't it hahaha. Alright, back to books!

Proofs that proof my boyfriend love to act cute. Hahahaha

On a side note, I have zero CNY mood this year. Could it be that as we grow older, the anticipation for CNY grow lesser? Or the issue is me?

Confession time. I feel that I've been neglected my family and friends. Hope that I can try to get the bond back through CNY. I'm pretty excited to go on a shopping trip with sissy this Friday. This might be the last shopping with her 'cus she's going Aussie soon, god I'm going to miss someone at home to irritate me. Yea, I'm pretty sick but you know that's what attractive bout me ;)

I'm amazed that I haven't got a D for this sem and hopefully I won't get ANY! So far so good, hope to maintain this. Finally all the projs are UNOFFICIALLY over, time to drown in lecture notes and squeeze some brain juice. Final lap! I may suck in 2.4km, I hope I won't suck in this too (ok bad joke)

So, had a serious quarrel with my beloved boyf but we are all good now. Tyvm u don't need to know so much, we are good than ever. I believe that at the end of the day, as long as we don't give up on each other, we have all it takes to overcome what life has for us. Anw, he officially started schooling and well, after being out of this field for 2 years, it gets pretty hard for him to adapt but I hope he knows that I will always be there to guide him and teach him patiently, not that I'm fucking smart genius but I'll try. Hopes he gets more independent in time to come.

Time for me in TP is ending soon, should do up a list of what to do after graduation. Chances of me completing it is rather slim but hey, no harm doing it. Why not right? Xx.

In the midst of this journey, I lost the charm, I lost the confidence and I lost the attitude. I'm wearing those back now.

Paranoid. Insecure. Period

I trust you but that doesn't mean jealousy won't exist anymore..

I was so glad to know that I did quite well for my gaming exam and individual report. I was so eager to find out the rest of my exam results cause I wanna prove to my Mom that she was wrong about me. I am capable of handling my relationship and studies at the same time. That kind of satisfaction was beyond words, really.

Now that Joseh got himself a job at NEX, I was in a state of dilemma. On one hand, I have more time for myself. I'm able to indulge in my fav taiwan variety show, do some exercise, more time to meet my friends but on the other hand, I felt weird and insecure that I have to share his attention with something else. Hmm for instance, texting. Okay, the feeling is just irony and unexplainable and I'm just a weird freak, enough said, period. But I can/will get used to it :)

Exactly a month and 6 days before my school ends and hopefully by March, I will be a fresh TP graduate. Being an air-stewardess is always my dream but my confidence in getting in is really low but oh well no harm giving it a try. When I graduate, the first thing I'll do is to get my license and pick up a new language. First 2 priority in my list after I graduate (Y)

XOXO